In medias res

It seems strange to begin in the middle.  In medias res, if you will.  That’s where I am right now.  I’m in the middle of my 30s.  I’m in the middle of figuring out my next steps.  I’m in the middle of some “heart drama.”  I’m in the middle of God’s love.  I’d love to think that I’m also in the middle of His will for my life.  Not so sure on that one…

On my age:  I don’t feel it at all.  That’s probably due in part to my having never been married.  More on that to come.  Much more.  🙂

Next steps:  For the past several years, I’ve been involved with the many different international communities around me, in one way or the other.  These have been extraordinary years, but I very much hope to serve those communities more in a missionary capacity than what I’ve been able up to this point.  This could be within the United States or in another country.  Somewhere.  Where the Lord would have me. Up till now, I haven’t made many steps in finding that direction.  I hope to at least pivot my feet soon.

Heart drama:  Oh…don’t make me go into that!  Please just pray that God will change one of our hearts.  Soon.  Only one, not both, because that would be counter-productive.  I need to trust that the Lord’s plans for me are good(Jeremiah 29:11). And I do not need to awaken love before it so desires (Song of Songs 2:7).  I think that means that I shouldn’t awaken his love prematurely, but it wouldn’t hurt for mine to go to sleep for a little while!!

God’s love:  What can I say?  I couldn’t live without it.  It amazes me more and more each day.

God’s will:  Am I in it?  Ever?  This has been a struggle for the entirety of this journey of trusting the Lord.  Through the years, there have been many evidences that I’ve been in His will, but as a visitor.  What about as a permanent resident or citizen?  Couldn’t say for sure.  Let’s go with Proverbs 3:5-6 on this one:  “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.  In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.”

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One thought on “In medias res

  1. I love this! I love that you are sharing what God is walking you through and holding to his love! I also have a heart for the mission field and am waiting to see how God will take me in that direction. Song of songs 2:7 is a beautiful verse and one of my favorites! I will be praying for you greatly, stay strong in the Lord and His love for you!

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